It sounds possibly fun and stressful at the same time…

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There’s lots of effing complicated factors about why, but the main reason is back in 2020, the school attempted to make me go to in person learning, since I was doing remote and was behind, plus the year was 2020, Covid was at a high peak where they were. There was no way I was going to put myself in danger of Covid then, there weren’t even vaccines yet for my age; because even if I wore a mask, everyone was likely to go maskless, since my state’s idiotic governor thought it should “be the parents’ decision to let their child have a mask or not”, even though the CDC heavily stated everyone needs to. It was then my family decided to go through an online school in order to avoid this risk, which worked out okay, honestly I was lagging behind a bit, but was able to obtain a good GPA still thankfully.

Now that I’m out of that, we thought I could maybe go back to public now that Covid is somewhat eased up, I feel much more safer now that I got the vaccine (thank goodness for them). The only sort of problem was that the school told us I couldn’t come back, but would later learn that was complete BS, as my psychologist informed that it’s in fact illegal for a school to tell you that or reject you.

There’s just a lot of fear I’m having about going back recently, and I was more positively looking at it a few months back, mostly uncertainty I would describe it as. I feel that if I go off and attempt to list reasons of why, I’d probably type garbled nonsense, so I’ll leave at uncertainty. It feels like the clock is ticking to my breaking point, it just feels like odds are pressing against me at the hardest pressure, a lot of them being personal.

Maybe I’m just too fearful, might not be too bad, going to do my best nonetheless.